Notes on Desire
And
Super Sad Black Girl
-An Erasure (Combined)
Super Sad Desire
BY SHERIDAN WALTER
I bare
i gulp sadness like / i want it / to empty myself
tied
-my hair.
mother said my quiet face / which lies / so subtle / into a nightingale
this absence / longing / so / like sunlight prayers
-recover thoughts
father wraps himself / up a gift / says there’s this
Drown
i am enough / in shadows / between desire & / wish to hurt
– a human
Eat myself
at school / i am my image / a boy coated nails & lip gloss / at the garden to share wounds.
-freely,
gleefully
bury
does it hurt you ?
-my body
Abandon my-
please promise me / desire / like coal.
-Cry
Choke.
last night / a boy into my throat / to please him / i want him hold me / pretty / little emptiness / i want reason to live
-Tell the truth
my blood
yesterday / he / dreamt of / you / again? / to feel more alive.
-free
history a sham / every day a boy who / a home /dream bodies into beings
my parents / both boys / wanted a girl / one she / god s humor / i agree / he beautiful helpless flower / that is made ugly / he finds humor in plucking it
-entitled
Black.